i have a hypothesis as to why i study worse now compared to that period in sec 4. somehow i rmmr myself being efficient studying then. i think its cos my bro's no longer constantly around.. i miss him. even if he's ard in the house but i'm not talking to him, there's still a difference. not just cos i dunno anything can ask him, but cos... dunno la. drats. if this hypo is true, then i'm dead for As muahahaha.

thing is, we're not exactly close either. tho 2 of my bro's friends on seeing us together get the impresion that we're quite close. close enoh i guess, but my bro's somewhat different with his friends and at home.. noisier more joker with friends. wish he idnt have to go back to camp.. house feels empty and lonely. glad tere's still my maid.

i am a selfish ungrateful inconsiderate spoilt brat. yep.

i can't find my My Favourite Things score. argh!!! started trying to play some parts of alvamar again. the day i can play all the runny notes for right hand, i will truly amaze myself. hahaha.