and tears roll down my eyes..

i cry too much and too easily at times...

the song ''closing time'' playing in my head... reminding me of times in rj... cos the cd compilation we got during prom had that song inside as they flashed back on orientation and other events..

closing time.

i wish i cld put a close to my life. but i cant. becos the truth is, its hard to die. its hard to kill yourself.

i'm behind.. too behind... feel like i have no control over anything...

i dont like myself.

i really dont like myself. which is why i wish i had the ultimate choice in the beginning... whether to live this life or not. whether to be born. the way i see it, the world is a better place (or no worse off) without this ''me''.