irritated. with my computer. blergh.

dance concert over, cadenza 9 over, vox stellarum tomolo.

a lot of thoughts running thru my head, or that ran thru my head as i experienced all that so far, but somehow i lack the words to piece them together and pen them down. well.

dance night was not bad. brought back memories, of ruifen, of rhythmic gym, likr when in sec 4 kah hua and i went to watch the competition. i dunno why, but i feel so much for rym ym, i mght well be a rym gym member ahahah. but really, i think rym ym is really really cool... was so glad when rg clinched the top for both junior and senior categories in 2002.

cadenza 9. was i mood swinging? maybe. but durng the day i was feeling somewhat miserable? wished i wasnt playing for it and all. felt weird. cant really talk to ginny. not close to juniors. that explains why i was so miserly with their flowers, not like siew and swe.

but well, felt better later, started talking to my juniors, at least trying to talk to them, cos poor thing, they were looking stresse and worried. so just encourage them and all lor. i'll never be close to them, but well, its not as if i'm a heartless senior who doesnt care abt her juniors. or am i? *shrugs* and was glad that there was a brass quintet in the end :)

but the fact remains that alls so different now. i can see y i prob will nv come back to play for alumni again. the fun part was shouting the band cheers again... that felt really good, tho my voice has now changed slightly.

my band life is coming to an end... who would have thot i'd become somewhat sian towards it now? vox is my last public performance. yet.. i dunno la.