why do i even keep a blog? i should just write directly into my diary... cant write in here without feeling restricted. there's no way i'll ever be able to write what i really feel in here, cos it'll leave me feeling too vulnerable in a sense, and i have no desire to burden anyone with my rubbishy thoughts when i really get into that mood. ahahah. either i'm more private a person than i appear to be... or u tell me.

you know what, after tearing a little and all, i'm actually more or less ok. maybe i really am growing up. wonderful~ i yearn for they day when i'll totally be able to put such thoughts out of mind, no rather, for peace of mind, and acceptance of myself even as i try to be a better person. (how cliche)

yikes more lumps. spent some time squeezing out more pus haha. ok shall not be gross.