the vicious cycle continues...

i dunno how to face anyone, everyone. why am i dao-ing everyone, not replying sms-es, not answering calls.... i just dunno what to say.

dark horrid side of me. things cant magivcally become better.. i'm supposed to work at it. but the way i am now, its like i expect everything good to come easily.

dad didnt bring me go see doc today. just as well, i wldnt want to go.

how can anyone possibly love someone like me? i stand amazed.