haha. quite funny. like.. .overconsumption of toothpaste? well done. overconsumption of chocolate is more like it. oh but overeating and restlessness is true. haha.
ok shall attempt to pen down recent thots. ot nice atmosphere now, as music form fi's blog plays ... =) and yes, happy happy birthday fi dear!
wei's leaving like tomolo. every time u come back only see u like once or twice. ah well.
friday in sch... felt so lost. terrible feeling. in class, mr yeo and mr lee got kinda angry at us. mr yeo was like a teacher who has lost his 'zest' for teaching, somewhat, as he talked abt how he no longer has energy to chase after students to do their work, to make up practicals, etc etc. abt how my batch is so unlike a j2 batch who has As this year. in a few months time. cos our class attendance was unusually ad that morn. like, 14/25 ? and adil, who's our chem rep is like absent more than present. so we dont get ham notes and stuff on time. and mr yeo said we shld as a friend talk to him, call him up, b4 it too late, before adil becomes "a casualty of the system". yes. those were his exact words. somehow, they have an ominous ring to them. sinister sounding.
was feeling even more lost when sch ended. wanted to study with jac, to meet up with mei, to go bedok and return li bks and buy flowers and sweets for section, and maybe somehow make it back in time for band prac. well done man. wasnt planning to go for band prac, but siew said go, then later she decided not to also, so yea. haha. u know, in rgssb, i don think i wld ever miss a prac to go for another concert. haha. except maybe if its rym gym concert muahaha. dunno la.
well, thank gdness for jac who hlped me feel less lost, by simply being someone i can talk to. thanks darling :) and sorry ah, psycho u to go dance concert which u didnt particularly enjoy and so wasted half the tic money. blergh.
then met kexian. think i havn really spoken to her since the camp last year. a looong time. was good talking to her, asking abt her life and all, trying to get her mind off her impending humans interview. really hope she gets it.
bought the flowers in bedok. if i had been more decisive i wld have bought my juniors' flowers then too, and be able to get them nicer flowers at a better price haha. anyway, already said liao. dance night was good. felt so proud seeing grace dance. watching her shine, in that sense. i thank god for her as a classmate. not that we'r particularly close, but yah. after her concert, was askin her how she felt, she said, empty. will i feel empty after vox too? my last public performance in my band.
what is life? ollie's latest blog entry is... stirring. somewhat.
"emotions are simply worthless description of moods can't even move the slightest bit of dust. who am i to decide on my fate n my life? my existance is impt to others not so much myself. yet somehow i find this good enough a reason to live my life to the fullest. is this a gift bestowed upon me by the great heavens above. to find meaning in nothing, to seek comfort in emptiness, to love to laugh, to love and feel for almost everything within my path...
ultimately i dun have to live for myself. it doesn't matter who i live for, i just know i have to live it well and worthy."
backsliding. haven really done qt in ages. missed cg last last and last week cos of cadenza rehersal and cadenza. oh well. drift drift.
was thinkin, whats the meaning of life. which is kind of contradictory, cos if u believe in god, u believe that he has a plan for u, that he knows whats best, and thats more than enough. y do i think such thots then? and i'll wish i didnt exist. (which is not the same as being dead so dont worry) haha. can u believe it, i was even talking to mrs lee soon bee abt it. i like her, my nice motherly ct, tho some of my classmates dont really i think. dunno why towards end of civics she suddenly come and talk to me. so i asked her whats the meaning of life. she said that because there's love. and its the small thigns in life she looks forward to, to seeing her children, to seeing her parents, cos she loves them, and in watching tv like the curent channel 8 7pm show which i also like haha.
oh and the night b4 talking to angeline i asked her that as well. abt life. she was like, "life is fun!" ahaha... so amusing. as in, she's amusing. i'm not belittling her when i laugh okee.. i just find her really amusing thats all.. =) then she was recommending all sorts of movies and shows that i shld watch. liek meteor garden. and to read slamdunk comics. ahahah. funny. will never forget her even if i lose contact with her some day, whch i hope not. she's really one kind. (tho actually to thnk abt it, everyone's one of a kind. its just that at different times they make different impacts? hmm) impressed with her too. hope all goes well for vox toimolo after all the hard work she's put in as stage manager.
shifu's coming back soon... which also reminds me of my cousin. who's grauating this year. does that mean she'll be back soon too? oh yah, one more week till korkor comes back. hehehe.
band band band. band, band band band band.
ok i think i've said enough for now.
cheer up jac. think happy thoughts! =)
ok shall attempt to pen down recent thots. ot nice atmosphere now, as music form fi's blog plays ... =) and yes, happy happy birthday fi dear!
wei's leaving like tomolo. every time u come back only see u like once or twice. ah well.
friday in sch... felt so lost. terrible feeling. in class, mr yeo and mr lee got kinda angry at us. mr yeo was like a teacher who has lost his 'zest' for teaching, somewhat, as he talked abt how he no longer has energy to chase after students to do their work, to make up practicals, etc etc. abt how my batch is so unlike a j2 batch who has As this year. in a few months time. cos our class attendance was unusually ad that morn. like, 14/25 ? and adil, who's our chem rep is like absent more than present. so we dont get ham notes and stuff on time. and mr yeo said we shld as a friend talk to him, call him up, b4 it too late, before adil becomes "a casualty of the system". yes. those were his exact words. somehow, they have an ominous ring to them. sinister sounding.
was feeling even more lost when sch ended. wanted to study with jac, to meet up with mei, to go bedok and return li bks and buy flowers and sweets for section, and maybe somehow make it back in time for band prac. well done man. wasnt planning to go for band prac, but siew said go, then later she decided not to also, so yea. haha. u know, in rgssb, i don think i wld ever miss a prac to go for another concert. haha. except maybe if its rym gym concert muahaha. dunno la.
well, thank gdness for jac who hlped me feel less lost, by simply being someone i can talk to. thanks darling :) and sorry ah, psycho u to go dance concert which u didnt particularly enjoy and so wasted half the tic money. blergh.
then met kexian. think i havn really spoken to her since the camp last year. a looong time. was good talking to her, asking abt her life and all, trying to get her mind off her impending humans interview. really hope she gets it.
bought the flowers in bedok. if i had been more decisive i wld have bought my juniors' flowers then too, and be able to get them nicer flowers at a better price haha. anyway, already said liao. dance night was good. felt so proud seeing grace dance. watching her shine, in that sense. i thank god for her as a classmate. not that we'r particularly close, but yah. after her concert, was askin her how she felt, she said, empty. will i feel empty after vox too? my last public performance in my band.
what is life? ollie's latest blog entry is... stirring. somewhat.
"emotions are simply worthless description of moods can't even move the slightest bit of dust. who am i to decide on my fate n my life? my existance is impt to others not so much myself. yet somehow i find this good enough a reason to live my life to the fullest. is this a gift bestowed upon me by the great heavens above. to find meaning in nothing, to seek comfort in emptiness, to love to laugh, to love and feel for almost everything within my path...
ultimately i dun have to live for myself. it doesn't matter who i live for, i just know i have to live it well and worthy."
backsliding. haven really done qt in ages. missed cg last last and last week cos of cadenza rehersal and cadenza. oh well. drift drift.
was thinkin, whats the meaning of life. which is kind of contradictory, cos if u believe in god, u believe that he has a plan for u, that he knows whats best, and thats more than enough. y do i think such thots then? and i'll wish i didnt exist. (which is not the same as being dead so dont worry) haha. can u believe it, i was even talking to mrs lee soon bee abt it. i like her, my nice motherly ct, tho some of my classmates dont really i think. dunno why towards end of civics she suddenly come and talk to me. so i asked her whats the meaning of life. she said that because there's love. and its the small thigns in life she looks forward to, to seeing her children, to seeing her parents, cos she loves them, and in watching tv like the curent channel 8 7pm show which i also like haha.
oh and the night b4 talking to angeline i asked her that as well. abt life. she was like, "life is fun!" ahaha... so amusing. as in, she's amusing. i'm not belittling her when i laugh okee.. i just find her really amusing thats all.. =) then she was recommending all sorts of movies and shows that i shld watch. liek meteor garden. and to read slamdunk comics. ahahah. funny. will never forget her even if i lose contact with her some day, whch i hope not. she's really one kind. (tho actually to thnk abt it, everyone's one of a kind. its just that at different times they make different impacts? hmm) impressed with her too. hope all goes well for vox toimolo after all the hard work she's put in as stage manager.
shifu's coming back soon... which also reminds me of my cousin. who's grauating this year. does that mean she'll be back soon too? oh yah, one more week till korkor comes back. hehehe.
band band band. band, band band band band.
ok i think i've said enough for now.
cheer up jac. think happy thoughts! =)
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