u wonder why, i wonder why, we all wonder why. i think it has to do with chemistry.. wld one then choose to never have been close and so avoid the hurt/pain/sadness/misery that comes from distancing? and i wonder, is there like some pre-determined gene that dictates whether or not pple remain close. i wld like to know if present closeness is merely a sudden blooming of friendship that fades away/ is unsustainable for long term, or it has potential to last. if i cld tell, i cld prepare myself mentally 4 the friendship. hahaha. k now it sounds like making friends r like preparing for exams. but sometimes.. ah well. at least for me, i kinda expected this. with regards to her who prob won't factor much more in my life anymore.

i rmmr reading the gp bulletin the other day, and there was this essay abt how pple have children for the wrong reasons, cos they have children for emotional security etc etc. of their own choice cos they want a happy family etc. but the writed said we shld have children to give them the chance to experience life. like wow, deep stuff man. its so... altruistic? ok i dunno how to describe that. blah. i know i'm not that saintly tho. to be super frank, can we all say we make friends to erm, bestow the wonderful gift of our friendship to the other? i'm sure partly its cos we want friends for emotional support blah blah.

i thank u all for being my friends :)

feeling a tinge of sadness now at the thought of bidding ahem goodbye at the airport tmr morn. u better take good good care of yourself k!!! get back my long ancient old letter from concord too! -bear hug-