feeling a lil out of sorts. cld it be that i've been too hyper these few days hence the somewhat anti-climax feeling now? or is it just school and ltb and new people... whatever. back home from surprise mission visit to jacjac's no.3 (HEHE :D successful! so paiseh that i almost left without passing her the stuff... =X oops. 老人吃呆症。 haha.) then popped down to smu to visit my ltb group.. the angelic seven... felt somewhat out of place. made me feel even more like escaping from smu. hahaha. yah right i'm sure i can just run away from everything... run run run... run jialing run... run forrest run... hais.

wells. at least i know i have dear friends who make me days. twas nice talking to jac, who was healthily eating apple, across the window grills (like pseudo prison heh heh and u and ur mum so funny. :D) and last night phone call with my chiobu... nice nice chat... very pleasant indeed... and other pple... can i just hide in my comfort zone please... i dont wanna vernture out. hide hide hide. sigh.

writing ecard in the gsr. at least i know i have another source of support. and the call after.

if your strength is made perfect in my weakness... then why do i not feel your perfect strength... i am so weak.. so weak... or is it that i'm resisting, have always been resisting? hais.

is this a so called mood swing?

i hate mood swings!

but wells... maybe it'll be gone tmr. was just feeling enthusaistic about things again, as if i suddenly have a new lease of life... but now i'm a bit tired again. this is called no stamina. no stamina to run the marathon of life. how sad.

carry on till tomorrow...