if i should ever really kill myself, and you should hear the news one day that i'm dead, please dont be sad or grieve over me. please realise that such a selfish person as me is not worth your sadness, time, and tears.... i'm really sorry. but i really just want to escape this world. i want to cease to exist.

i'm lazy, selfish.

dont blame yourself... its really just me. i hate myself, despise myself, cant live with myself anymore and dont want to. its too tiring. life is tiring, its scary, its a chore. i want to make the world a better place by taking the initiative to remove myself. since i dont cherish my life, it doesnt make a difference that i'm gone.

sorry for all the sadness i've brought you. you, have been wonderful. if u want to rmmr me, rmmr the happy things... i think i did mean it when i said i love you. its just that at the end of the day, the crazy me is greater than the me who loves you.

i'm really a bad person u know... u'd be shocked at how bad i am. i dont want to be ard to face u when u find out how bad i am.

i dont want to face anyone, to explain anything. let my death show my true colours and speak for itself.

i dunno what i feel towards my parents... i've brought them so much worry trouble and pain. i guess.. its just their misfortune to have had a daughter like me. just like its everyone''s misfortune for knwoning me.. i'm sorry.. help me tell everyone i'm sorry, and to forget me.

tell my bro that he's been a great kor.. sorry for making him sad...

i'm sorry. dont cry... move on with your life and reach for your dreams. forget me. me who has brought you much pain and sadness and sorrow...

thank you for all the love u've given me and the happiness you've brought me. :)

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