hmm. feeling kinda low now. somehow physics paper really got to me.. its kinda like psychological defence. u need psychological defence against unexpected things which made sudden attacks on u when u're no aware hence leaving u feeling disarrayed. it hit me when i was feeling vulnerable. so i feel disoriented and disorganized now. but actually to be honest i've been quite out of sorts i feel for such a major exam. maybe its partly the thought that prelims results won really affect anything. cos i guess its highly unlikely that i'll apply to overseas uni or get a scholarships etc, tho the enticing thought has captivated me more these days. but wells dreams shall remain dreams, unless they're meant to be.

blah blah blah. to pick myself up again.